Thursday, February 5, 2009

None for me!!!!

I know that everyone desires that true love. But when you've had it and lost it, it will chew you up and spit you out. I know, because it happened to me. My one true love was here one minute and gone the next. She was what held me together and when she left, I fell apart. The breakup triggered something in me and it hurt very badly. But we must let bygones be bygones and move on. Though I will never forget the one that made me into a psycho, I will find someone else. And I still hope that we we will still be friends for a long portion of our lives. I know that there is someone else out there for me and I am going to find her. Until then I will live my life to the fullest and try to make new friends. The best friend in my life though will always be my roomy. Thank you Liz for always being my support beam, and for dealing with me when I do all the stupid things that I do. I love you girl. And I would like to thank Alan for his encouraging and helpful posts. Well time to go, see y'all next time.

It Gets Better & Better Everyday,
HAPPY TRAILS

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Life is scary

I have realized that life is scary. The world brings you many things that hurt you, things to make you wonder if it's all worth it. Well friends I'll tell you, I am dealing with hurt and pain myself at this very moment, and it has made me a stress basket. But the good news is that I made an appointment with a therapist to possibly get some help with that. I want to thank my roommate Liz for being there for me and making home life bearable. But the thoughts of killing myself comes day and night, the thoughts never stop and the little pessimistic voices make it even harder, but maybe the help I mentioned earlier will make it a little easier. Well if you have any problems that you would like to share, drop me a line and I'll be happy to send you any info that I have. I'm sure that my roomy will help me in this, and so you know she helps me with a lot of mental health stuff.

Freaked and Stressed,
HAPPY TRAILS

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Memories

I hate to bore my readers, but i need to let it out. I have many memories that i need to share. The fondest memories I have are of my dad. I remember when I was a kid my dad used to tell me "Marty, don't be like your dad. He's not as great as everyone thinks he is." Well, my dad was wrong, he was one of the greatest men I have ever known. He taught me everything I know, how to survive and how to be the man that I am today. I miss him dearly and wish every day that he was back with us. This is in your memory dad, I love you. The next memories I have are of my recently former girlfriend. We used to have so much fun together, my family loved her dearly and my dad would have been proud to have her as part of our family. But I went wrong somewhere and drove her away. I regret everyday that I could not have done more to make her happy but as it goes she found someone else that can do that, I wish her the best in life, and hope she finds happiness. She meant the world to me, and they say if you really love someone, you must let them go. So i say to her, you are free. Best of luck. Well I'm going to go now, I'm sure you don't want to hear of my troubles anymore. Good day to all, and have a pleasant week.


No better than any other day,
HAPPY TRAILS